Hello Blog, forgive for neglecting you so

Cross Country Season is now over, my book report is done, my book outline, and my science article is done. Feels like I have nothing better to do now.

Gee, I`m so used to feel the weight on my chest with the work I put myself through constantly. It feels so weird to not have to do a lot. 
It left me  A LOT of time since Tuesday to sit and read books. I`ve already finished one long book, almost 900 pages. It was the best book I`ve read in a while. I have never been so engrossed and so emotionally close to the words coming from another persons mind.

Sherrilyn Kenyon is a fantastic author. I have only read one book from her so far, but I`ve visited her webpage and read some of the book excerpt of authors. I had me hooked. Safe to say now that I am currently waiting for books to arrive form my local library by her.

http://www.sherrilynkenyon.com/
HER WEBPAGE

And with my classes feeling so aggravating with the people and he teachers there, reading is the only stress reliever I can have. A lot of people have me worried about me, saying I've been in a bad mood, I`m quite, I look angry or annoyed. Which is strange, I`m not. I`ve just been in a little quite time period. And I have been distasting the physical contact from people. I`ve been in this odd little behavior but I am slowly bouncing back into a little social mood.

I`ll be starting to swim team soon and going back into my Upward Bound Program. It feels so weird. And I don't feel mentally ready to deal with people in upward bound that are so...loud, peevish, and too bombastic. If anything, its only a handful of people. However, its embarrassing to be around them sometimes. You can tell on fieldtrip the expressions of peoples faces says it all.

Well maybe not, I`ve always been good at reading people. Kinda weird but it comes in handy.

However one good thing comes out of it. HALLOWEEN IS COMING.
I am so excited, I love seeing the little kids dressed up in adorable costumes, eating candy, and watching scary movies. its the most magical night to me that only comes once a year. But I hardly express that kind of enjoyment to a lot of people. I plan to dress up as a witch this year ;)

Also I am finding tumblr a great stress reliever. I get on and feel in awe with my deskboard. Its a nice way to express myself. I have also been finding neat ideas to make for my personal art projects But my creativity level is in need of a break, haha.

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MY TUMBLR BLOG

I think that's all I have to say for now. Bye!

{untited for now}

This is all rough draft. No edits, corrections, or grammar corrections.
I want to post this just to… see the reaction of people that read it and see if I should keep going or not.
Critiques and helpful comments are highly appreciated.
Also, I have no figured out her name yet. So it`s supposed to be left unsaid
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Here is the link for my story!

 http://figment.com/books/702502--untitled-for-now-

Hunt for October Red

Inspired by the changing leaves from autumn; I just HAD to write this.
I have not wrote poetry for a long time, go easy with the comments and critiques.
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"The leaves evolve into the shades of brilliant red;
an approbation to the word October.
A lurid glow from the carvings of a hallow pumpkin.
Assuage to the change, with decorations held to an annual Sabbath.
A feeling you get when you`ve changed for the new coming year.
To the smell of pumpkin, cinnamon, and beloved sweets;
down to the unassailable warmth of a blanket.
When the candles lit and the wind sings its transcending tale;
everything is coherent to the word October,
with brilliant shades of red."

~~~

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A link to my figment account!

My weekend(s)

My weekends just felt so awkward. I kept to myself being busy with editing my page one weekend. It edit, it look nice now, and I have been getting more page views. I wish I can more feed back or comments but honestly....some people just click favorite and be done with that.

Constructive feedback can be GREAT, even WONDERFUL for me.

And for the past three sets of weekends, its consisted of me working and unable to sleep as much as I like. However, this weekend was different. I managed to finally get up around 8-9ish instead of 7:30 exactly!

I still have a book report, a book outline, and a science article to finish. The science article s the only one I have not even started yet.

And right now I am watching the Phantom of the Opera. The 1925 version, so far its pretty interesting. So I will end this blog here.

Newspaper Club

I want to join the newspaper club; I love writing, how else can I express it?  Other than improve my writing technique. (I feel it needs a lot of work that needs to be done) I`s something new and it will help me get more active.

I`m not fully aware to write or what goal there is behind it. Just whatever comes to me, I have always had this "freelance" style with my writing. It could be poems, comments, a journal entry, or short stories.

The thing with short stories is that I have never wrote an actual novel.

"My mind is like clouds, some drift slowly while other go by fast. It can rain so hard you can`t tell where you want to go or what to write. It can be free like the sunlight, kissing away the sky to show a beloved promise of ideas. The sky always changes with different pictures and scenes. It never stays still, it always has to be in motion like a gust of wind bellowing the colors to change the sky like twilight to dawn. A paintbrush with different attributes to it`s canvas."

I`m always motivated and inspired, I just lack dedication to ideas over lengthy periods of time.

I think I just wrote something! hahaha!

There is one obstacle...not a lot of people are wanting t fully participated. Maybe I can talk to the head of the newspaper club about writing more then one article for the meeting on Tuesday. And when more people join I can leave an open article for them to work on.
This gets me so excited, but when I write. I needs to be interesting. Something that draws in a crowd.

I am considering of becoming a writer, a journalist, something.

I still have other ideas but this one picks at me more, a bigger hill that needs to be mowed over.  That`s why I want to do this, I want to see what it feels like to have you`re writing published.

• Movies Reviews
• Book Reviews
• Poems
• Inspirational Advice

I do have an idea on writing a movie review on "The Raven"....the one released in 2011. Perhaps that shall be my first article. I hope this all goes well :)

A new blog

Okay so I`m just going to make a tea blog. I doubt this will get very active; but I`ll post cool videos and links to some cooking stuff and tea related things for you guys.
http://kattealeak.blogspot.com/

School

This is all typed up from writing in the middle of the first day of class.

School (Chemistry Honors)

Okay so the first day of school so far is pretty hectic. Student`s schedule is mixed up, classes are missing, or have a blank slot. So it will take a while before anyone's schedule is fixed.

And I happen to be missing an Algebra 2 Honors class; however, I have a "fundamentals of design"; that makes this two art classes. Considering I am listening to my teacher with this Indian accent stressing himself out about the number of students is too high for his chemistry class due to a risk factor. He seems nice but today...I don`t feel like getting to in-depth with all of that.

Oh god I want my tea so bad right now.

On the bright side I got to see all my friends; it was really good to see some familiar faces. But I have a separate lunch class then them (I had a couple friends in the same period; but one friends got their schedule changed.)

It feels weird; you`ve changed so much this summer. When you feel like that and go back to school, wow. That`s all I can say.

(I think I`m using my blog as some journal....that people can see. Yeeshhh.)

 

School (French 2 Honors)

 

Madame Dvorik has this very thick Russian accent...it`s kind of fun listening to her.

• She`s from Moscow
• She already said she is a demanding person

Looks like I am going to learn how to speak French in a thick heavy Russian accent!

 

Strangely, I`m really excited to speak a different language. She talks about college and how they like your money....a lot.

 

This makes me think about my art class; I talked to my old geometry teacher(who is my cross country coach). I`ll take the honors math-but I may have to drop ceramics. Hopefully I`ll get out "Fundamental of Design".

 

....from how the teacher is talking so far, I think I`ll be writing a LOT of French related things in her class.

 

Oh how I miss learning a different language ;-;

 

 

School (English 3 Honors)

 

It`s almost the end of the school day and everything feels so different. One major things is that I won`t be in the SAE class with everyone else!

 

It feels like a cage was released and I see new people along with some old friends...perfect!

 

 

Now that I think of it...I think I got my wish; and another bonus is that I don't have to see the one person that made me feel so aggravated to be around. To me that feels like a star sticker on my cheek from the universe-like "hey this is life, we think we needed a break and let this one person get out of your life".

 

I am so happy to have that one person gone and out of my life...hopefully for good. I could never get away from the person, we were in the same social group and I didn't want to start anything unnecessary. Let`s all hope I didn't just jinx myself.

 

Another bonus would be my classes are in the two trailers...AKA: air conditioning!

 

...man this makes me thinking of wanting my locker a lot now. I really do not want to carry all this stuff I have to lug around in my duffle bag(full of cross country stuff)

 

School (American Government)

 

So the moment I walked in to find a small old women wearing two glasses at once.

 

It`s strange but interesting. We have AP edition textbooks...not that different from last yea`s history class. Except we had 3 history teachers in one year.

 

Over all I`m happy that we have more classes in a shorter tie span, and a variety of people. It feels private in a way-some people know you and some people don`t. And the one`s that do either barely know you or are close friends.

 

I was actually pretty nervous...well more like a negative grumpy person this morning.

 

 

"People may forget what you say or do, but they won`t forget how you make them feel"







 



Green Tea

So I have been trying green herbal tea lately....aide from the Lipton tea I was drinking previously. It is absolutely delicious; you may need to have delicate taste buds t actually taste the tea. Otherwise, you taste hot water.

Once you open that bag full of the tea packet you get this wonder scent of herbs and even the smell somehow calms you down!

"Green tea's antioxidants, called catechins, scavenge for free radicals that can damage DNA and contribute to cancer, blood clots, and atherosclerosis. Grapes and berries, red wine, and dark chocolate also have potent antioxidants." (Julie Edgar-Green Tea`s Powerful Antioxidants)

"Marji McCullough, ScD, RD, the American Cancer Society's strategic director of nutritional epidemiology, says human studies haven't yet proven what researchers like Chan have discovered in the lab: green tea's EGCG regulates and inhibits cancer growth and kills cells that are growing inappropriately. " (Julia Edgar-Green Tea vs Cancer)

"Green tea and its extract have been shown to fight obesity and lower LDL "bad" cholesterol -- two risk factors for heart disease and diabetes -- but in very limited studies. One study in the Netherlands and a study in Japan showed that green tea did both." (Julia Edgar-Green Tea and Weight)

"Taking weight loss supplements that contain green tea extract probably won't hurt, unless you have liver problems." (Julia Edgar-Green Tea Straight up)

WebMD-Green Tea Health Benefits (Link to where I got my information from) 

Nonetheless, I drink tea simple because it`s relaxing and enjoyable. It`s always nice to know that something you enjoy drinking to help relax is also very health beneficial.

Try some! And if you don't like a certain flavor...there are many kinds of tea boxes, bags, makers, etc that can suite to your tea loving taste(or soon to be).
 

 
 

-Resolution-

I actually followed my New Year`s Resolution so far.

• Get good grades
• make art
• be happy
• socialized

I`ve done A LOT of that! I`m so proud of myself.
But now for this school year I`ve made another one (it`s a little personal).

• be happy
• make more art (get better)
• socialize with friends (be happy)
• be active with cross country
• avoid conflict with family
• try not to miss as much school as last year
• drink herbal tea everyday!
• get all A`s
• get better with my writing skills
• work on art and possible scholarships

Maybe the fact that I post this; it makes it into something I can pay more attention to, and in a way more meaningful.

Since I`ve gotten out of the rock of my old hermit life (being pretty depressed) I feel a lot healthier and positive all around. It CAN be hard to keep it up; but I`ve found a trick to deal with my little anxiety mishaps.
I wont worry to much about that....or stress at all on my list of resolutions(if you are able to re edit the resolution from the beginning of the year) just relax and slowly over time it will get done!

I think if you pressure yourself its not going to feel fun or enjoyable.

Cheap Sketch Commissions

 

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Rules:

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Feeling Good To Let Go of Social Networking

Before this blog I made and several other art sites I created, I rarely got on Facebook. The annoying, drama filled life of social networking. That is why I always clear out my friends list every now and then.

If you are someone that is being cyber bullied, please unfriend the people and block them. Its so much easier to deal with, so even online you feel some security. However, real life is different. You just need to find a way to deal with it, ignore it, and toughen up. Keep yourself in a positive mind state and it makes your environment  more positive place. Trust me

It`s nice to let go of people you no longer talk to. It`s like letting go of your past and some weird personal goodbye. Of course that may just be me always making things somewhat personal; or maybe that's just me liking things to be positive and happy.

Never ever, accept friend request of people you don't know. It makes me feel awkward to have someone from Egypt, Middle East, or Africa want to be my friend. Heck, even people in school that you only recognize I don't even want in my business. What little I have as so called "business" on Facebook is just pictures of my artwork, friends, and my recent picture of me in my cross country uniform due to pride.

Anyway, sorry for that rant above. Haha.

It can be hard to let go of "friends" but as you get older you DO learn who they are and what crowd you want to be in. For me, I like having friends were there is NO drama and you can be so laid back and relaxed with. Where you just don't have a care in the world. That's the beauty I see in my friends. I can`t stand gossip, and when I see people talk A LOT of trash, it just gives me the impression they clearly have nothing else better to do then make themselves feel better.

IF you have friends that are like that and worry if they talk about you too. Hate to break it to you, but there is a good chance they do. So if you feel like they really do not like you. You`re the girl or guy that everyone secretly hates.  Please do yourself a favor and drop them. Do not put yourself in that kind of situation.

Once you go on with your life, your "friends", and whatever seems to hold you back. You look back with a eased shrug, "boy I really thought I knew everything back then". "Damn, I was so stupid". Any mistakes you've done in the past, don't beat yourself up with it. It makes it more hard on your emotional state and mental. Just give you`re past a glance and just keep moving. Soon...you wont even look back.

And sometimes its so much better not to.

And soon you wont even give it a second thought. Ever.

Sleepless Nights

Don`t you just hate it when you can`t fall asleep? I know I do. Lately I haven`t been getting the sleep that I`ve been needing. At points...I don't mind it at all. Nighttime is peaceful to me, everyone is asleep an you feel like the world is all to yourself. Some nice personal time, no one bothers you, no annoying texts from people, just decent solitary time.

That`s something I`m really going to miss about summer. Make art, watch movies, relax, and nighttime.

The quietness just lets you think about...whatever it is you want. It`s soothing that`s how I look at it. Most people get scared, creeped out, paranoid of the dark. But me? I welcome it, to a extent that is. Jeez this makes me so sure I`m going to miss summer. I`m not ready to juggle everything with school and deal with people. Sadly, that's life.

I think its just the school I go to, everyone has to impress everyone. Be someone, act like a someone, but they`re not. Maybe that's what gets be a little aggravated at times. Just..people want to be fake. Oh well. It`s not THAT bad, I think it just depends on who you are as an individual. I don't let a bunch of people, even one for that matter, bother me. If a day comes that's bad, it was just a bad day not a bad life.

Some people need to learn that.

I guess that's highschool then, learning how to deal with others, and others trying to figure out who they are while you are all at the same time. But maybe that`s what makes me so different, I feel like my mindset is just so different. I talk different, I think different, I even react differently.

It makes it funny! Whenever people try to make fun of you just shrug it off. Nothing but a group of dumbasses anyway.

Even with school coming soon, I have a lot to look forward to. Friends, ceramics (can NOT wait for that class), and cross country. You just need to find your friends and what YOU love doing. And some people...just cant even figure that out! If you let one person or one environment ruin your while day you ruin your whole week, and when you ruin your whole week it can up to a month or even years.

I`m not going to lie, it took my years to figure that out. Perhaps my summer was my peaking point. I am not the same person when school was let out then up to entering my Junior year. (damn...already a junior!) I feel like I`ve found myself and who my friends are. Hell...being in a two week pre-college program made me understand why they say college friends stay with you forever. Not only that, I feel I've made some inner peace with myself...I`ve felt like that for awhile actually but now. It`s stronger.

I`ve messed up a lot in my life so far, but I`ve learned (it was hard) to let things go. And for those out there who have people that just love to bring up the past to start a fight. Don`t go with it. If you're like me, you hate talking about the past. You like to look forward  and see positivity around you. Yeah..I know what you`re thinking. How is that possible with a life like mine? Well...I cant give you any answers...that's answer is or you and for you only. I`ve found mine.

And for those out there who may be depressed and cut, have suicidal thoughts. I don't care what people say or what you say. You end your life in  time of grief and sadness, you cant change anything or do anything to make it better when the memories follow you into the afterlife. It eliminates any chance of things getting better for you and people around you. There is always a better solution...trust me...I've been there. Its a vicious cycle.

Damn, it always has to be sleepless nights like this that love to get me to ramble. But it feels good.

Stuffy

 

 

They protect you

They love you

They care for you

 

It`s nice to hold

It`s nice to feel

It`s nice to know

 

That there`s something there

 

That there`s something here

 

That there`s something now

 

 

You feel hanged

You feel lost

You feel negative

 

They protect you

They love you

They care for you

 

There`s something there

 

There`s something here

 

There`s something now

 

No judgments

No grudges

No envy's

No spites

 

Simply Love.

 

 

 



Do what you can do

Do all that you can

Push yourself everyday

Then look back to see how far you got

You get what you`ve put into it

That`s all that takes

Simple

Yet simple can be hard

Do all that you can

Push yourself everyday

Keep it

I take no credit for this picture. Just found it on the internet and had to share it with you guys/

Judgement (To all the wellness in need)

Life is about lessons that is made. Each is unique, exotic, and personal.

With morals in life and values with good deeds. It leaves you lost and confused.

With a dash of hope and a salt of bitterness, they collide with forces unheeded to man kind.

Not sure what I am getting at?

When you`re in that rut you just stand there to see others climb about.

You can do it, they say, It`s not that hard just get started.

You look to see no ledges, no permanent guidelines to give you strict aid.


Sometimes a look up to the stars and heavens with a scream of the might of your lungs;

I will always get through this no matter what you through at me.

It can be in all shapes and sizes, people, animals, karma, nature, and inanimate objects.

It comes through all forms like a test to see if you can over come that gigantic rut.

Then find to be no rut there at all.

It`s just you.

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Just an opening post for this blog.

It came out of me; nothing seriously personal. This can be a lesson to those coming through bad times that you just need to relax and not look at obstacles like an near impossible course to pass. The chaos comes; but once you pass it there's that still calm.

Greetings blog!

My name is Kat otherwise known as "Rwhan".

I am new to this blogging site, so more info and editing will come soon!

Just to inform you that all artwork shown on this blog is © Rwhan  unless notified otherwise.

 

I decided to pick back up on this blog that I had no posts on and decided to keep it clean with poetry and photographs alone the way.

 

I have no promise on how active this will be; this is more for enjoyment for myself and for viewers on BlogSpot.

 

Feel free to comment and critique on my writing skills. Improvement can always be made!